Just came home from school.. Feeling really confused.. I really don't know how to describe what im feeling now.. which is pretty rare.. im rarely ever.. well... 'emo'..
haih.. i feel sad,disappointed,hurt,upset,scared,and confused i guess. i felt like crying even.. in school i mean.. but its so weird.. i dont ever get this emotional over this kind of thing.. but yeah.. anyway..
i just wish that we could all go together.. its like our last event .. mayb not for you guys but for me at least. who knows when we'll c each other again? it is these years that we should cherish.. the friendships we make just before we spread our wings..flying off to our different destinies.. I know its a pretty small thing but i really feel we should not forgo our memories for some pretty petty reasons.. im really not trying to blame anyone.. seriously.. not this time at least.. its sad really.. i used to overlook these events as stupid and a waste of money.. but guys.. its our final year of school! The very last! uni is not the same! this marks our end of uniforms, wacky classmates who some, have no clue what they want in life, the feeling of just being 'you' with your friends, without having to bother if you're acting mature or not..!! I dont know.. i just really dont know what to feel or say anymore.. mayb i wish we could just go like you guys managed to do quite a few times before.. supporting a friend as you may call it.. this could also mean making a stand for our friendship.. but of course.. thats just me.. i really dont know y im feeling so upset about it.. go figure.. ignore my ramblings. i just really had to get it out of my system. i cant tell anyone about it.. cos its quite stupid, and i dont think anyone really cares about it.. i mean they're right you know.. its just a dumb event! but i guess i just have been looking forward to going with my friends.. oh well.. i hope there's a next time.. with friends? i dont know.. i hope so!
